The truest side of grace is this, from wounded hands redemption can be fed... David Crowder has no idea how these simple lyrics have proven so true in my life these past few days. It blows my mind how someone as broken and sinful as me can be used to deliver the message of God's redeeming love to another.

As weeks go on here in Swazi I continue to see broken hearts and dry souls thirsty for living water. I see dying people, abused children, and people with righteous anger crying out for our Lord. And even though it may seem that something is blocking Heaven from flooding on this dry land we have to remember we serve a BIG GOD who is doing BIG things. He is God of the city of Nsoko, He is God of the people who we serve at the care points, and He is God of the nation of Swaziland.

This same God has completely rocked my world. He continues to shatter my heart with the use of one teenage girl who clings to me with hurt like I have never experienced before. Yet, through this hurt I am experiencing freedom like I have never felt before. God continues to use me despite my past, despite my little knowledge to the subject, and despite my emptiness.

It's amazing how alone you can feel surrounded by 18 girls and about a hundred children all around ALL THE TIME!! But for the first time in my life I am screaming out to Christ "here I am. All of me, everything finally!" and it feels so great! I realized the need to let go of the past and fix broken relationships. It clicked one night during worship when we sang the song I have sung so many times before, "Oh How He Loves." We got to the part saying we don't have time to maintain these regrets... HELLO!!

God is working in wonderful ways, he is teaching things to me that I have heard over and over but they are just now sinking in. It doesn't matter your past we serve a BIG GOD who can use broken people, broken relationships, and broken countries.